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Thursday, April 18, 2013

Choking

I am quite pleased to announce that I am going to submit my PhD thesis for external examination very soon. How soon? I don't know because it (the thesis) is currently with my supervisor now and he is having a final look at it. But I believe soon. Definitely within the month or next. I have done my completion seminar and that went well; all that's left to do is to submit the thesis (and maybe write a couple more papers or journal articles).

So with all that (submission) happening (soon), I am planning on what to do next. In fact late last year I went for a couple of job interviews. I got offered a project engineer position early this year (as opposed to a mechanical design position) and they wanted me to start almost immediately (which I did not mind that much), but what they were offering me was a rather junior role. I wasn't too happy with it. They were basically discounting a lot of my previous experience working as a mechanical engineer and as I looked at the roles and responsibilities carefully, the job itself wasn't too exciting as well. There was another product development company that I interviewed for that seemed to be keen in offering me a position but due to some hiccups - a project put on hold and another project not coming through, that offer was put on hold.

Anyway, last month I applied for a very interesting job. Interesting because it involves sports engineering and there's product development and project management all thrown into it. To me, it was the best thing to do. I thought I had a chance and I was optimistic that I would get a meeting and I did. I was very excited about it. I spent at least 2 days preparing for the interview, thinking about what they might ask me and what are the things I should say etc. But at the actual meeting, I choked. I had moments when my mind froze and I did not give them a satisfying response, at least not my best answer to their questions. After I left that meeting and when I was on my way home, I realised there were so many things that I didn't say - things that I usually knew, things that I would do and could do. Sigh. But I choked. Very frustrating. Frankly I wouldn't mind if I went for an interview and gave it my best shot and didn't get offered the position because they interviewed someone better. But I didn't even gave it my best shot.

Oh well. It's over. Mabel was kind. She told me that's how interviews are, it's a stressful situation and people do choke. Maybe I got too excited over it, over the sports related part of things that I forgot to bring out the engineering and project management side of me. On a positive note, I did meet some nice people in my overall "interview experience". At least I got to know a few more people in the sports industry and even if I don't get this job, they could still be contacts for possible collaborations in the future. God willing. You never know. Time to apply for more jobs.